I realize it’s been a rather long time since I posted and I need to do something about that. After last semester ended, I didn’t have much Writing stuff to write about because I wasn’t doing it regularly and, obviously, didn’t have school stuff to write about. I intended to get back into the routine once school started up again, but that didn’t really happen. I’ll try to do better now that school is in full swing. (Btw, I’ll be more motivated to keep it up if I know I’ve got readers, feel free to say hi!)
So, quick updates: I believe I posted about Residency. Again, it was AWESOME and reminded me why I’m doing this. Now that I’m actually doing this and not partying with all my writer friends, it’s a little harder to remember and the motivation is slipping. Always looking for motivating suggestions!
My first packet of the semester was due last Monday. I finished it up on Friday (after a rather violent battle with my printer and quite a few tears. Note: I intend to buy a new one before the next packet is due.) and got it to the post office 30 minutes before they closed. I assume it is now in my advisor’s hands and that at some point, it will make its way back to me. Hopefully with some positive feedback. As far as that packet, I am proud to say that I turned in 4 annotations (the most I’ve ever done in one packet! Also, that puts me at 5 so far for the semester which is 1/3 of the max I could do, and that’s in my first of five packets, woohoo!), the usual process letter (5 pages), and 18 pages of creative work (6 of Sarah, the rest of William).
Now, I’m bogged down with 4 days in a row of 11+ hour shifts, so it’s all I can do to stay alert enough to take care of the baby. I’m listening to and reading 3 books at the moment, because at least I can listen while I entertain the baby and then he’s being educated too, and then, hopefully, by next week, I’ll have a few books I can write annotations on.
I still have creative work to worry about. I haven’t written much new since Residency and now that I’ve decided on my thesis, there’s all this pressure about what I write and that it has to be good and worthy and all, so I’m feeling paralyzed and blocked about the work and basically just terrified to even try, so I’ve been focusing on the other requirements (mostly the reading because it’s so time consuming). I really need to get back into the habit of writing regularly because even if everything that comes out is crap, at least I’ll have something to work with and if I know it’s going to be crap and I’m going to write it anyway then I won’t worry about it and maybe something good will come of it. In the words of Sarah: ugh.
And, last but not least, this semester I have to write my 20-page Long Critical. I have never in my life written such a long essay so the very thought of it overwhelms me. I’ve had a general topic since the beginning of last semester. I discussed it with my advisor as an option for one of the two Short Criticals (5+ pages each) and we both agreed that it was a more suitable topic for the Long Critical. So I’ve had that sitting around gathering dust for six months or so, but now I need to refine it. I have a few ideas on how to narrow it down, but nothing solid yet and I don’t even know where to begin my research. I need like two secondary sources but it is NOT a “research paper” as the teachers at Goddard have made very clear, so, I really don’t know what it is. I guess it’s a Long short critical and a short critical is just a long annotation. So, it’s one of those 3-page papers I’m writing all the time now, only stretched into 20 pages. God help me.
And so, with that, back to work and thinking about writing. I will try to be more diligent about the blog. And about writing my thesis. And breathing.
So long for now…